Last night i have nothing to do but watch tv. My day turned out ordinary; washed my clothes, eat lunch, sleep in the afternoon, watch tv till my eyes hurt and keep on texting and texting untl i run out of load. (yeah!) My common text friends texted me; my mom of course, my ampon insan Mikko ( yeah the cute guy from canossa ), my brother and some others who dont need recognition. (OMG) But to my suprise, yeah unexpectedly i have recieved a text from azi.
So now who is azi. For the sake of others who doesn't know azi, she is my ex current GF. Yeah we are now friends, unlike before that we are not enemies nor friends now we are in the frendship status. She ask about how i am, and she have heared from a common friend that now i have a work. I told her about my work, and i am happy that right now have this place i called office. She said she is happy to hear that, and maybe we can see each other sometime maybe have some coffee or just eat out. i said maybe next week, and she said that would be wonderful. After van and i broke up he had azi for a gf. Yeah she is the girl after me. At first i hated azi, cursed her, everytime i hear someone mentions her name as if i am a volcano ready to errupt. But that changed when i have known the real her. She is nice and wonderful, and now i am proud that van choosen her as a new GF. She is into medschool and i am so proud of her. Yeah van found a girl better than me, much better but that only made me feel happy for him atleast he didnt replace me for a good for nothing girl.
I realized that maybe sometimes current girlfriends can be friends to their ex's girls as long as they keep it civil and true. I like azi for van, no hard feelings. am proud of azi, and somehow i wished that she and van will always be happy. From our small talks, and current text marathons azi and i talk about our past and future and how wonderful it is that we are now friends. I guesse what important know is that we are happy on what we have.
The story about my friendship with azi is one example of how friendship and understanding ends one conflict. Now i want to recognize my ex's girlfriends. Since i have learned and felt the feeling of love i have only recognized four official BF. Boyfriends who i love the most and i have love truly. ( if given a chance to get back together why not, but he must be single at that time... you are the best ex bf guys.) They are Mar, Paul, Jan and ivan. Right now i want to recognized and say that they have wonderful and lovely GF's and i hope they will always be happy.
And to the others who have not mentioned. (yeah, may iba pa?) The relationship we had are priceless but i guesse it is not that greater than the other four. But i do hope that you are happy now with your lives.
Yeah current GF's of an ex is not all evil. But some are, some who are really envious of their bf ex some who are not contented about their selves. I am not dropping names now what i am saying is the truth. Almost every girl who have ex's have experienced that. Maybe i do in the past. But now i dont care, because like what i always say. They can say everything about me, i may not look good and i may not have lots of money like them. But i am proud to say that when i am with my friends we dont talk about her about how i hate her i dont care why must i care i am me no matter what. I am happy and contented on who i am, FLAWS AND ALL. I was born imperfect and ill die as the imperfect cherrylyn diamante penalba that i am. I might done something bad in the past, but all of us have dark sides; but sorry i have darker.
But above all of this she cannot be me. And me cannot be her. (oh no never will i want that). Why do people talk about other people; most especially other people flaws and other people failure? For me it is because they want to feel superior to them, they want to show others how perfect they are compared to others. But why? Maybe, maybe basing it to Psychiatric Nursing (thanks sir lester) maybe deep inside them they feel the real inferiority against that person and at that time they or she talks about the negative things and the other peoples failure she is superior. And maybe even do she dont want to admit it there is really envy inside her that want to be released, defense mechanism baby. Also other reasons are one wants revenge, and until now she is not satisfies on the results of her revenge status.
So what i want to say now is. Let us go on with our lives, and live it to the fullest. Be what ever we want us to be. Be friends with friendly people, cherish everything that you have as if it is the last time. We have the right to choose or friends and our friends reflects who we are (so that's it), i am proud to say that i have glenys and she have me. i have vena (akin na din ung mga cute na mn me nya..hehehe) and she have me. I have few people to call friends but know they are true and sincere, azi i know you are and i thank you for that.
On my status right now, I am not successful i dont have a lot of money. My last out of town vacation was years ago. I am living only on my apartment. Yeah i am working, i have wonderful officemates. I am imperfect so imperfect that i have the right to be envy to others. But i am not, and if ever i become envy, i will choose the one i will be envy of. I can say that i am fellingera, i am a social climber; but i am proud of who i am this is me and im so glad and proud i am not you.
THANK YOU GOD FOR MAKING ME CHE! THE IMPERFECT CHE, BUT ABOVE MY IMPERFECTIONS SOMEBODY STILL ENVIES ME. LOVE IT!
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